what is the method for my madness?
now we're cooking...but not as much as i thought...in tech, and it ain't so hot...the weather, that is...i was kinda looking forward to an afternoon in the sun. i should be careful for what i hope; i'm sure my wish will be granted eventually, and i'll be wondering what the heck i was ever thinking.
i'm still trying to figure all this out. the sense of space and location on the actual set is still ahead of me, and i'm not sure how far ahead of me it even is yet. i think a sense of it all is developing for me???
it has been awhile that at this part of the process, i've felt impatient. i usually dig tech--i am truly one of the weird ones. i love watching and experiencing it all coming together. i think my impatience is relative to really wanting to see how this whole story comes together...
...also, there is a fair amount of hurrying up to wait for we merry wives and the husbands that be. i love to work and work hard; it's so much harder to work up to a scene and then tra-la-la til the next one. the work with the puppets and sound infused now is so intricate, and requires a very special attention. but the puppets have no attitude and don't bark or bite, so i can't really get annoyed with them. i don't want to be annoyed anyway, and i don't know why i'm just using this blog as a grievance report.
what i'm seeking is inspiration...and i'm gas bagging hoping that something will hit me on the head. i'm lucky. i'm with some hugely talented and fun people, good people. and i get to act. and it's willie the shakes. it ain't verse, most of the play is in prose, and i sure like the verse. it's always such a glorious gift when verse is present. i'm wanting so much to break through the wall, as i seem to be piling the bricks myself. dopey, but true.
i think i'm acting and feeling ordinary in what is is an extraordinary experience.
a-ha! i think i've hit on something!! i am surrounded by these puppets, with people animating them with intelligence and abandon, so what's so special about me? the wife, i mean. (i think).
i want desperately to be a housewife of windsor, and live that life fully. omigod. i wanna be a desperate housewife. a-ha!! again. i have NEVER wanted to be a desperate housewife. i do work and create best out of struggle, and perhaps i'm having to work double overtime to find the struggle, because it's easy to be here, it's an honor, and sean is one of the most easy going directors i have ever known.
enuff---for now.
the muck of my brain that has spilled over, i thank you for the indulgence.
i'm still trying to figure all this out. the sense of space and location on the actual set is still ahead of me, and i'm not sure how far ahead of me it even is yet. i think a sense of it all is developing for me???
it has been awhile that at this part of the process, i've felt impatient. i usually dig tech--i am truly one of the weird ones. i love watching and experiencing it all coming together. i think my impatience is relative to really wanting to see how this whole story comes together...
...also, there is a fair amount of hurrying up to wait for we merry wives and the husbands that be. i love to work and work hard; it's so much harder to work up to a scene and then tra-la-la til the next one. the work with the puppets and sound infused now is so intricate, and requires a very special attention. but the puppets have no attitude and don't bark or bite, so i can't really get annoyed with them. i don't want to be annoyed anyway, and i don't know why i'm just using this blog as a grievance report.
what i'm seeking is inspiration...and i'm gas bagging hoping that something will hit me on the head. i'm lucky. i'm with some hugely talented and fun people, good people. and i get to act. and it's willie the shakes. it ain't verse, most of the play is in prose, and i sure like the verse. it's always such a glorious gift when verse is present. i'm wanting so much to break through the wall, as i seem to be piling the bricks myself. dopey, but true.
i think i'm acting and feeling ordinary in what is is an extraordinary experience.
a-ha! i think i've hit on something!! i am surrounded by these puppets, with people animating them with intelligence and abandon, so what's so special about me? the wife, i mean. (i think).
i want desperately to be a housewife of windsor, and live that life fully. omigod. i wanna be a desperate housewife. a-ha!! again. i have NEVER wanted to be a desperate housewife. i do work and create best out of struggle, and perhaps i'm having to work double overtime to find the struggle, because it's easy to be here, it's an honor, and sean is one of the most easy going directors i have ever known.
enuff---for now.
the muck of my brain that has spilled over, i thank you for the indulgence.
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